My Chronicle as an Artist

We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.

T.S. Eliot

23: Edvard

Nature is not only all that is visible to the eye... it also includes the inner pictures of the soul ~ Edvard Munch

Edvard ©️2020 LSAuth.

Edvard ©️2020 LSAuth.

The first time I viewed The Scream by Norwegian painter, Edvard Munch, was on a large projection screen.  I was 18 years old, taking a year “off” after high school graduation, feeling a bit lost.   I was living with an older sister in Charlottesville, Va. While she was finishing her last year at the University, I was trying to figure out how to structure the next chapter of my life. I worked a day job as a dental assistant while I took evening classes at the University night school.  One of the first classes I took that fall was Modern Art History.

Of all the formal classes I had ever taken before that time, this was the first one to really change my life.  I had never experienced such challenging and rigorous material before.  With endless reading material of literature, philosophy, critical essays, and art, it was truly my first taste of what a University life could be about.  I adored this class and thrived. 

My professor welcomed my thoughts on Munch’s  Scream.   I remember telling her that I thought I understood the originality of Munch, and the expressionist “angst“ of its time, but with all that expressed internal turmoil, I still saw it as cartoonish, and was not emotionally moved.

All these years later, with many glimpses of The Scream reproduced on everything from canvas bags to coasters, I still feel the same way.

Several months ago, I was slapped with a large dose of irony when I walked by this huge catalpa—the largest one on Vanderbilt campus.  There was  Munch’s figure, perhaps laughing at me, mocking me, getting his revenge.    The only way I could exorcise this nagging vision from my mind was to attempt to paint this magnificent tree, riddled with sapsucker drill wells, as faithfully as I could.

But I still see The Scream…do you?

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